That was my mistake but it was an honest mistake, I didn't know.
I accidentally outed Angel and she is the top of the chain. But I had no way of knowing that because she didn't tell me. No one was supposed to know about Angel back then. Well now they do because it's official. But back in those days it wasn't known. I didn't even know.
Well I did know - that is precisely the problem. I wish I didn't know. But I guessed, in public, and that caused such a shitstorm of trouble I'm still reeling.
Angel is the boss and I do not want to ever, ever do anything to piss her off.
I didn't know I was on the chain. But you don't choose them, they choose you, and they chose me way, way back - like high school. Besides that bitch set me up and almost got me fucking killed. I still don't know if Crazy Bitch was involved but all signs point to it.
So now I'm running scared for my life wondering how badly I pissed her off. In fact, I've been contacting everyone to let them know I will never, ever, ever break the chain again. I am now, as always, a compliant servant - not like I have any choice in the matter.
You probably don't know about the chain. Think "chain of command." It is the real system, the one behind the scenes that people aren't supposed to talk about. It is everywhere - it's like a secret society.
Or like a cult - a fucking cult.
And you can never leave.
You think I chose this?
It just is what it is.
So now I'm off chain. And that means I am fucked until I can figure out how to get back in their good graces. So I guess I have to roll the dice. Will Crazy Bitch help me, or will she rat me out again?
Guess I'll find out tomorrow.
Listen to the wind blow, watch the sun rise Running in the shadows, damn your love, damn your lies Listen to the wind blow, down comes the night Running in the shadows, damn your love, damn your lies Break the silence, damn the dark, damn the light And if you don't love me now You will never love me again I can still hear you saying You must never break the chain Chain keep us together Running in the shadows Chain keep us together